Will my Prince Charming pleeaseee bring me there?
Colloseum
Or may be..
Trevi Fountain
A legend says if you toss a coin over your shoulder into the fountain, you will return to Rome some day. Haha.. =)
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By the way...
This was what silly Wilson did 12 days before Valentine's day. Rochelle's name was Rachel.
Hey Rochelle, if you are looking at this and eating at the same time, sorry to spoil your appetite.
=P
I HATE YOU WILSON
I was surfing through friendster. And all of a sudden this person's name came into my mind.
Throughout my 23 years in life, I have never hated anyone as much as this *******. I do not know how to put in words why I hated him so deeply. But I sure know when it all started...
About a year ago, when I started clubbing
By chance one fateful Saturday at New Asia Bar aka NAB, I bumped into an ex-sec school mate. Someone whom I would never expect to meet in a club. I guess if any of my schoolmates spot me clubbing they will also be equally shocked because I also do not look like the kind who club. Whatever.. That ex-schoolmate was Wilson by the way. I was so happy to see him because I found that it was exciting to meet someone you had not met for a long time.. somemore at a clubbing place. We had a nice chat, catching up and exchanged phone numbers. He promised to let me know if he was coming down to NAB again so that we could club together. Before we parted, I asked if we could have a goodbye hug.
* H U G Z *
A few weeks after that fateful Saturday
He did not call or sms me that he would be at NAB since that day we met. Never did I expect to see him again for at least 3 or 4 times while clubbing at NAB. But I wasn't that turned off that he did not inform me about that, in fact I still tried to be friendly with him. But I could feel that he was trying to avoid me.
He knew it and gave me a direct answer.
He knew that I had feelings for him. (OMG, did I just say that I liked him before?? P U K E !!! ) He smsed me with a direct ( but awkwardly polite ) reply that it would be better to stick to what we were. I accepted it but did not want to give up so easily.
His target was Rochelle
Rochelle once got very close to Wilson, though she knew my feelings for him. She knew that I would not be jealous, because she was only close to him for a reason. It was to spite another person. Anyway no elaboration on that as it would be too long to explain.
But Wilson got the whole idea wrong. He thought Rochelle was interested in him. So he started to go after her.
The hatred began
Gradually I discovered how ******** Wilson could be. On the outside, he looked like a gentleman who always knew how to spare a thought for others and take care of people, especially women. But behind all his gentlemanly actions towards me, there was an obvious motive. He was making use of me to get close to Rochelle. He started being friendly to me again after that direct sms. He asked me many questions online regarding Rochelle's background. In front of Rochelle he was nice to me. When Rochelle was not around, he was another person. That's when I started to hate him. I had never come across a person so fake like him before.
Actually I was not sure if that was the main reason I hated him. I was confused actually. I liked him yet he went after my closest friend. Maybe I could not take the fact. Maybe it was out of jealousy that made me decide to hate him
Rochelle never liked him
Having seen his true colours, I warned Rochelle not to even consider him as a potential partner.
"Nah, don't worry. I won't fall for a person like him."
But look at what silly Wilson had done on his blog.
Ermm.. Picture can't seem to be uploaded. Will try again later.
All the while Wilson was just being a fool. You may think that he deserved some sympathy because he could not get the girl he wanted despite putting in effort. My foot. I think I can only say "serve you right". Anyway Rochelle is happily married now. You will never get a chance again.
The difference between honesty and frankness
From my previous previous post, you all should know that something real terrible had happened to me. So far only one kind soul bothered to ask me what happened. The rest either did not read my blog or are jus simply "bo chap". It's ok, even if you ask me I may not tell you anyway, so never mind.
Let's just call this terrible matter ***.
Actually there are still people who care for me lah, those who do not know about *** do ask me about my life related to *** at times. But then I really do not know how to answer them leh. I feel like telling them *** had happened to me, but then I do not wish to invite questionings after they know it.
"How come *** happen?"
"Why *** happen?"
Duh... if I knew why, I would not be feeling so sad til now. (But even if I know the reasons I think I will feel equally sad lor.)
This dilemma leads me to a something "chim" that I had shared with an ex-close friend (means now not close anymore, I can't even remember his birthday liao) of mine a long time ago.
WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HONESTY AND FRANKNESS?
I had been rather bo liao to do a deep analysis of these two English words when I can actually get the answer from a simple dictionary. Or just go www.dictionary.com to check out. But what I was searching for was a deeper meaning to the difference. So here is my analysis.
I shall change the question to "what is the difference between dishonesty and unfrankness?", because it's easier to explain with that.
Dishonesty = Telling a lie.
When someone asks you a question which you know about the truth, and you choose to answer with something which is not true, you are lying. And that's dishonesty.
Unfrankness = Unwillingness to share the truth with someone you are close to.
When someone close to you (which means this person has the right to know the truth from you) ask you a question, and you say, "I do not wish to talk about it/ answer your question", or simply keep mum, you did not lie. But you are not frank.
To those people who do not know about ***, I will not feel bad about not telling them about *** because they are not close to me (at least not close enough for me to be willing to share such a personal matter). I am just not being frank enough, but I am not being dishonest.
Get it? No? Forget it.
Tired me
Yawnz.
Wahaha.. Let me boast about myself.. Brag, brag, brag...
Today I shall brag... By the way, I'm a Leo woman... here it goes...
Leo ( jul23- aug22):
Compatible With:
Very Good: Sagittarius, Pisces, Cancer, Aries, Scorpio, Leo
Good: Gemin, Virgo
Leo woman is a born leader. ( I don't think I can lead well )
Sentimental. ( Am I ? )
Generous. ( Depends leh )
Dignified. ( Maybe )
Strong. ( Yes )
She enjoys sports. ( True, Don't play play, I was a cross-country school runner hor. )
She spends a lot on dressing. ( Erm, if I am rich maybe I will )
She is very faithful.
( Definitely, I am born in the year of Dog somemore, how can I not be loyal? )
She needs appreciation. ( Perfect ! )
As a mother, she is generous, affectionate as well as strict and a disciplinarian.
( I am not a mother yet, I won't know. But I think I will definitely be strict and a disciplinarian )
She is also a good career woman and will balance her home and career with perfect aplomb.
( This one I am also not too sure leh, cuz I am not a career woman yet, and I don't know if I will ever be that one day, I never aspire to be one anyway. Er.. what's aplomb by the way? )
Summary : Wo (3) shi (4) zui (4) bang (4) de (-)
Hmmm.. It's been so long since I blogged, what should I start to write about? Grrr...
Work
I'm not happy with my work, honestly. Due to many reasons I can't mention here. People who know me well will know why. For those who just happen to pop by, sorry I can't say much here.
My birthday
Hmph.. it's over for almost a month. It was the best and worst birthday for me. Best because I received the most number of sms greetings. It shows that there are people out there who still remember my existence and bother to wish me well. Thanks.
Worst because I received the most unwanted birthday gift. You must be thinking, what? Something bad right? "Bad" is a word too positive to describe it. Well, I can't think of a more negative word, so I shall use bad.
What do you mostly not wish for as a birthday gift?
I'll never forget this date 31st July 2005 11 something pm.
As usual only Rochelle knows the details as to what happened on that day. I can only say that I was supposed to compromise about something but I didn't due to complicated reasons. ( Self-protection, principles, no assurance etc.) I seldom regret on things that I do or decisions I make. But this time round I really regret. If I knew that compromising was the only way to prove, if I could turn back the clock, I would have done so. And looks like I don't have a chance to prove again.
I met up with Rochelle on the following day ( and that's my birthday ), trying very hard to hide my sorrow. But I failed. I felt so bad to have wasted all her time the whole day cuz all I did was keeping real quiet the whole day. Sorry Rochelle. Those words were still ringing in my mind. I was so occupied, asking myself the same question countless times. Why? Why? Why? It was supposed to be my birthday, I was supposed to be happy. But I can't be.
I went to meet up with some colleagues in the evening for my favourite karaoke session. I acted as though nothing had happened to me. "Smiling" and "enjoying" myself. Those colleagues who are reading this, please do not ask me how I can act so well. Because I also don't know.
Roller-coaster Saturday
Oops, almost overslept today. As usual. Quickly changed into what I wore at Rochelle's ROM. Michael said I looked good in that. Actually had wanted to put on a bit of make-up to surprise him, but sorry no time. Hehe..
7:15 am
Stormed my way to the road junction outside 7-11 to hail a cab down to Khatib Mrt, Michael was fetching me from there.
7:25 am
Alighted from the cab and didn't see Jasmine there. Huh? Was this the small side road Gary was talking about? Aiyah, heck care lah, just wait. They would call me if they didn't see me around.
7:30 am
How come they were not here yet? Decided to call Michael. Jasmine answered and said that she saw me already. Which meant they were coming. Phew.. I didn't not make a blunder . Hopped into Michael's car shortly. His wife was also around. What? Did I hear wrongly? They were still using chalkboard in SNGS? Freak, I brought along my markers for nothing. Urghh.. I've never used chalk to teach before. Well, my handwriting was gonna be ugly. Whatever..
7:45am
We arrived at SNGS primary carpark. Mandy was there already. Madam Joy and Mark came shortly. Michael showed them their designated classrooms first. Cuz only Joreen and my class starts at 9am, the rest at 8:15am.
8:10am
Michael showed me to the classroom I was supposed to conduct my lessons for the next 8 weeks, 4 Grace. No one was there yet. Duh.. class only commenced at 9am, who would come so early? Decided to stay in the class to do marking til the students arrived.
8:45am
Calanthea came first. Followed by (not in order) .. hmm let's see if I can remember their names..
Isabel, Grace (who had a striking resemblance to Tifanny from ACJC), Sarah, Cheryl, Peishan, Soccha, Tifanny, Clista, Maisie and oops can't remember one more, never mind.
9:10am
Class began. Tried to act professional. But well, still need brushing up I guess.
11:05am
Class ended. Joreen was not done yet. Shall not wait for her. Decided to head down to the family lounge first to meet up Michael. Gary was there with food. Thanks.
11:15am
Joreen came down. Without her stuff. Chatted a while. Then she went up to bring down her stuff.
HERE COMES THE UNEXPECTED ROLLER-COASTER. (I call it the roller-coaster cuz it was ups and downs to me).
11:20am
Joreen was back. Was making her way down the stairs to the canteen when ...
Trip.. fell.. knelt down..
I saw it all. I was waiting to see her get up. But seconds went by.. why was she not standing up still? Something was very wrong. Mandy rushed to her side to help her up. I reacted shortly to help her carry her stuff. Pain was written all over her face.
Finally she was helped to a nearby bench to sit down. She had a bad sprain.
She called her brother to come and fetch her. (I didn't know about it at first.) Then SUDDENLY..
Eyes rolled back.. B L A C K O U T!! (All these I saw it with my very own eyes).
I was so stunned that I did not know how to react. Again Mandy was the first to rush to her side to hold on to her before she banged her head on the table.
She looked like she was gonna puke but nothing came out.
And just as sudden as she fainted, she woke up. (By the way this was the first time I've seen someone fainting right in front of my eyes, and I hope that I will never get to see that again cuz it's simpy an unbearable sight to me).
Her brother arrived shortly to get her stuff into the car first. I walked up to her and asked many questions. Did you eat? Did you have enough sleep? What time did you sleep yesterday? Did you over-stress? ... ( I guess Joreen must be damn irritated at that time. WTH, I'm already feeling so horrible liao you still ask so much ). But I was truly worried mah. She explained that it was cuz of due to the excruciating pain at her injury that caused her to black out. I took her words.
Her brother helped her to the car and they left.
11:55am
Jasmine, Gary and I left in Mandy's car back to Yishun.
12:15pm
Just nice. I was not late for my class. But talked to my p2 students and their parents and wasted 5 mins
1pm plus
I finally had a chance to tell Michael what had happened. He called her while I got back to my class.
Afternoon time
I finally found out from Michael that she's okay. P H E W ...
5:30pm
I called Joreen. Asked her how she was. Talked about what happened today. She thanked me. Don't mention lah. I did not even do much. Well, too stunned to know how to react. You should thank Mandy. Salute Mandy!
7.00 pm plus
Back home after dinner. Typing blog..
What a day..
Traumatised me
